Tuesday 28 August 2018




Some thoughts on 

‘Crowhurst’.

 the boredom of being at sea, 
  family.

visual cues of the mundane baked bean 
we are aboard the Teignmouth Electron from the beginning.
Crowhurst deluded, selfish 
 in his heart a ‘good’ man I believe. 
Desperate to live up 
 the spirit of the age, or the spirit of Empire, 
essentially a suicide mission. 

 the twin polarities at work 
dogged determination and dare I say courage, that is set against his foolhardy abandonment of his family.
 and his own cracked vanity. 
 image of a floundering black fish; 
 during these moments that we feel the enormity of his terror. 
 the vastness of sea  the impossibility 
 terrifying magnitude low budget, 
             Crowhurst  in the gathering darkness on the prow of the Electron as it floats silently into the blackness, 
 the collective awareness of loss  experienced by his children as they wake in the night at the same time and cling to their mother for solace. 
 a reminder to us all to cling to those we love the most as the black seas swirl around us seeking to pull our lives on invisible currents into deeper waters than we could ever imagine.




                                  Sea cabbage   sea bee   see potatoes
                                                    winding lanes
                    Swarthy carpenter  extensive gift shop  replica weapons
                                                    divided self
                               Rotten walkway many wasps  English heritage  
                                                    mediaeval racket
                          
                                                  Up in the battlements
                                                  vertigo and wasps
                                                  challenge
                                                   our existence
                   
                        Sharp flint  plastic chainmail  expensive ploughman’s
                                                 extensive wasps .

Thursday 16 August 2018




Agile
Now with fronds
It burrows
Growls at you
Prehensile tail
Curls around
Moss covered.

Adept
At disguise
You wink
Under that mask
I see you
Do it 
Over again.

Uncomfortable
In the shadows
Move into the light
You say 
To yourself
And yet
You don’t.

 crisis 

A shadow 
Stop, a pellucid spectacle
A grimoire 
A grumble sale response
It deals in turmoil.

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Slime balls 
Ooze down the inside of your brain

A storm out to sea mid-Atlantic
Hurricanes crash together in broils of
Wilderness visions
No thanks and with that
I’ll take the path well-trodden
Taking breathes every step bouncing off
The walls here we go
Again
Old raggedy heron sits on the marsh sign
Three times I encircled him or her
Three times the watch-full symmetry
Almost stopped me in my tracks
Reaching for a camera that wasn’t 
There
Get up early before the day slips away
Like it always does
Instead of thinking about a master plan, why not
Think of a monster plan like those
Furry old films from Montauk
The overgrown wilderness of memory
Wow it looks idyllic
I bet it was
Rock stars jetting in, famous artist breaking eggs in old beach hut
It’s the perfect fantasy lie of 
Care free bohemia
All systems running parallel
the north Atlantic swell
and somewhere out there
the Teignmouth Electron
empty and broken
cargo long gone
in a watery desert
knowing that
this is how the adventure
ends.



The bells chime nine
the heat 
Of the heart now empty
Of desire the 
summer spent beyond
muscle response and
Air-conditioned moments
Of absolute solitude 
Where 
The things in themselves
That increased in pressure that slipped passed us 
Were too gilded to take notice of
Before the rushing water force
Of times temporality
Took them down stream
and fractured into
crystalline equivalents
they hung in a cave where thoughts impale themselves
reach back but they have gone
smiling faces drag us forwards onwards
to where
the woodland creatures still gather at dusk
The tawny owl and the buzzard 
are the same
ephemeral 
approaching 
mind-fire 
but bespoke
Now whispered in memorandum.

Monday 13 August 2018

Form a hermeneutic circle around yourself
Draw up books and notes
Revise and upgrade
Change move 
Forward 
Mutate
Survive.

Electric impulses swell desire
To go and then return from
A place unknown
Ungainly walk 
Broken gull
Defence.

Sea folk know the tidal way
Boats return with or without a catch
If it’s rust you want
Come and grab some
Belief.

Suffocating I cannot write
The thoughts are there
But trapped
Just beneath the skin
Wretched
Like cockroach eggs on the brain
Annoying.


Overwhelmed you are
Flung through the hazy forcefield
To drunk and drained to give much
Time to consuming energy
The wasps rip the heads off their prey
A trophy.

Playful nature 
Doomed romance
The interior of the shop was so vile
Smell of packet foods and
Years of neglect
On the village green the fun fair resembled open heart surgery
Remorse.

Flinging caution in the bin
We ground out a steady course of
Bile inflected wisdom
It was going to save us
But this barge slowly started leaking
Now we are almost sunk
Not without love
Autumn.

The tide is mounting
Not ebbing
I flow downstream quickly
“Cheerio”, I screech
Nobody notices me
To busy playing
Suggested offers are now
Redundant.



A gamine approach
To the fourfold way
Smoked butterflies
On the barbecue
We will wait for longer
It is expected of us
Being is time
Beyond that, ‘Poof!’, it’s gone.
Spectral half-light.

Halitosis makes a move on you
It is bequeathed by a friend
That old smell of cheap high street shoe stores
Conjoins again once more
In sharp contrast
De-humidifies blocks out
Repressed.

Praxis makes wisdom whole again
The thought of ‘stepping up to the plate’
Is irksome in the extreme
And should not be encouraged
But to break away from the provincial patter
For moment it looks thus
‘a dialectical intensification of the auto-referentiality of all modern culture’
Now take a
Break.




In the trophy world
The air is sprightly and sumptuous
Non-stop ecstasy is permanent and relentless 
Flowers bloom all year round
The celebrations are un-ending
There is joy, so much joy
Faces contort under the pressure of happiness
They cannot take its weight
The centrifugal force of so much pleasure
Threatens to rip apart at the centre
Insects live outside the core
The conditions are perfect and they have flourished
Dragonflies are four feet long
Their blue crystalline shells catch the sun’s rays
As they dart about
Released then enfolded in an elliptical tango
Small explosions of light fill the air
This cargo has the metallic sheen
Of kingfishers bursting into flames
Whirling blurs into timeless Being


Dawn Raid

Start out 
With ambition &
An awareness of
Time zones, 
Bring an approach to protoplasmic edifice 
under business acumen
Accumulated strength waiting, it’s on hold
Cold callers stalk the house
Stake out
Waiting to pounce on the funds
Carnivores lusting on vulnerable fat reserves
Travel the highways and byways
Instinct responds by head burial, culture consumed
From silos, storage units burst with unused energy
Locked museums hint at strange goings on
Inside distant gated communities
A coeval carnival, masked writhing
Lust for currency, stocks welter
Now into battle
Across the swamp to
Stake claim 
To majority shares
Mithras
The overseer
 Ending the day
Blood spattered gains
All over the platform
Wipe your face
Breathe
Begin again.